I haven't asked for help for a while but I'm not ok. It's almost been a full year, and I haven't gotten through what I'm going through. I've just been drowning myself in substance abuse and pushing it deep behind my brain.
But I'm alone...I need help
Meet Chester. A little kitten I rescued from a bozo leaving him by the trash
I named after Chester Bennington from Linkin Park after he had passed away. 6 years later he's so fluffy
My breathing is kinda stable...
Someone needs to kick my ass about taking my meds...I just had a massive anxiety attack and took my zoloft.
Just please pray for me to have a better day tomorrow....I love you all....yall are saving my life even tho I can't see yall and it hasn't
Filed legitimation, and it's done. The clerk said she is friends with the baby momma of my exs husband and knows his boys.. and saying my ex and him got married very quickly. It's a small town here. Plus, she was telling me the judge here doesn't take mothers that keep the kids
Well, there were about 1000 of you fellas that sent a follow request, and I didn't get notified under my locked account. I have accepted all of your requests, and im thankful to have all you back
My original account had almost 3000 followers. Let's make it more
#WeAreNAFO
#OSINT
A lot of you were wondering what's going on.
Last year, I lost my aunt months after the mother of my children decided to leave me and took my kids with her....and right now I can't afford much...I can't get back ok my feet..
I feel like I'm starting over...and I'm lost
Hey, fellas. I'm trying another day today. Unfortunately, today it's all in my stomach...gotta be careful moving.
I'm gonna try to eat today... I ordered some wings... one of my favorite foods... but let's hope it stays down. For everyone who checked up on me, thank you. I have
Was taken a nap when all the sudden I get a call from my daughter. Talked for a bit. Talking about school and her teeth growing back in and all kinda of stuff...I was glad and happy to see her but hearing my ex and her other partners just made me feel really uncomfortable and I
I love yall.
#NAFO
. You are my brothers and sisters I've yet to meet.
#NAFO
is family. We are history. We made global impact, starting with a genius known as
@Kama_Kamilia
. He deserves to be in the history books. And we will share the history to years to come. No matter what
I was doing fine until now when it's time to lay down. I'm not ok. Thought I was, I really really don't wanna check myself in. I need to shake it off before my kids come i cant go any longer without seeimg them....I can't be like this anymore...I can't anymore. I don't understand
One day, I'll get to visit Europe. I want to make friends all across Europe. Maybe I will soon after all this drama stuff...and when my kids are older I'll show them the world. Especially seeing the Aurora Northern Lights. That's on my top on my bucket list
@trinzu
I just feel really alone...I miss my kids
I feel like my time is running out...no motivation to get myself back on my feet....I'm just to broken that I can't really explain what I'm feeling
@JadedDoorman
I don't want anyone thinking I lost them completely....it's just really hard to see them when a father should be...but the distance they are and them time and money it's harder to see them....and on top of being alone...and beinh alone when you have the kids..
Been taking meds. Sleep has been fine. But I'm still not ok
Over thinking. It's always hot. I find little to no joy. Just trying to find something is impossible for me.
I know what my heart wants....
I'm embarrassed when I come here and talk about my problem.
But I'm
I'm letting everyone know I'm reading all your messages and trying to keep up. Right now I think I have the info I need. But to make it easier just dm me some links so I can organize it. If anyone has advice or info just dm me...
There's still alot but I'll make sure I'll
Some of you are wondering how I'm doing. I'll post a update tomorrow. Kiddos go back home in the morning.
But for now I wanna tell you I'm doing fine. I actually feel better. Gn fellas.
@elonmusk
Seriously dude wtf. Yall got my main account suspended because I was standing up against a nazi? Dude you use to inspire me but your letting the real enemies run loose. If you don't want a nuclear war stand up against russia. Figure out out to get us off to Mars..smh
Now you guys know why I fear losing my kids....the women I once knew has turned into a snake and she has no idea who she just fucked with. She opened a fire inside me. This is my time to fight for my happiness.
I'm tired of being vulnerable. But no one can bait the Bat. That's on
For the fellas who sent me that pizza money I requested yesterday. Thank you. I got Arby's instead tonight. I never had the BBQ bites there..omg, they are healing me. Just trying to stay focused by stuffing my face. Thank u again
As it's getting late I feel like my head is playing with me. I failed this morning and forgot to take one of my meds because i went to bed late I feel like absolutely unsafe with myself...I honestly don't know what to do.
I don't understand why I'm hurting.. I don't understand
I need at home health tips for when I'm feeling like shit. Some people recommend things. I need to stop feeling like crap and write this stuff down and finally fight for a new chapter where I'm healthy again.
I don't wanna lie to you guys...I'm not ok..I'm happy I have my kids but I have this void in my chest...I'm burnt out...I'm grateful but this isnt the same. Next week when I go back to the program I need to rebuild again...I'm just tired. I'm sorry
Oh I'm not gonna try to get back together with her. I set one boundary. I told her if I see the kiddos I'm not spending the night there...that house Is toxic and judgements are made 24/7. Don't need it in my life. And I won't let it.
She got pissed because I said no.
Ok? Fuk you.
Got my kids for 2 weeks yall. Gonna be very busy but I'll post regularly.
#SlavaUkrainii
The world seems to be getting more on edge so enjoy every moment. As for north korea...bout to fuck around and find out.
You know what I'm not as pissed and stressed about it....it actually makes me laugh that this women thinks ill hand my children over...and that's what's going to happen.. fuck out of here man...I fuckin laid down 7 years of my life for this Dominic being.
Shout out to the loyal
@AdrienneQuill12
They have a place to sleep...food to eat...toys to play with and my side of the family who loves them all to death...they have everything when I see them
@elonmusk
Said the richest man in the world that should put his money on charity or help getting the homeless off the streets or helping a country that's under attack...the government can stop at any time...but the people never will stop supporting ukraine ๐บ๐ฆ
#NAFO
The Crimea beach party does sound fun but I would love a actual gathering in Europe. Where we all come together and show pootin how real
#NAFO
really is
@ImdaPrincesse
@trinzu
It'd getting close to a year since I lost everything....I've been pushing it to the back of my head but I can feel it coming back and I feel like I'm reliving it again.. I know other people go threw this but I feel like I'm losing my own battle
@havard_lindheim
Thank you for trying tho...I appreciate you all that responded....I'm kinda distracted...but idk how long it will last...hopefully I'll fall asleep soon
I used to think the person that I had children with would pull me out of the hole I was in... but she left me at the lowest point of my life. This is why idk if I can trust love again. Now I struggle with life daily....knowing I still have kids that need me...while trying not
Kinda scary seeing the world change in front of our eyes...this isn't the world I want me kids to see... but it's the world I need to prepare them for. I'm praying for Isreal. I'm praying for Ukraine... and I'm praying that one day, the world will figure it out. One day... no