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April 8th 2023 ITB qualifies to the Paris Major. The company experiences massive growth, a legacy and, if handled correctly, the foundation required to create a fully funded operation supporting several esport aspirations and capable of going years into the future. Veb, Kuba, Momo, Bainy, Blainey, Punico and more recently Bevve, TeaGuv and Raine all played their part perfectly, and deserve every opportunity afforded to them. Brilliant people and innately hard working. Unfortunately, I, the CEO, was acting as two people – one trying to match their efforts and another a destructive, alcoholic narcissist hellbent on self-immolation. I think everyone whose met me has likely seen one of these two sides, with the former able to convince everyone around me I was a sensible person, acting responsibly and not betraying their trust, while the later disappears in fiendish pursuit of dopamine and self-harm. The ultimate caricature which embodies the worst of people and this industry. The result is a house of cards repeatedly knocked down and then rebuilt hastily in the wake of my actions. We still managed to achieve a lot despite sabotage, which just goes to show what could have been achieved without it. Today, that house falls permanently, and I nor anyone around me can fix it. ITB goes under, people lose employment, salaries will go unpaid, money lost, hate created – all my fault and responsibility. They’ll be several legal consequences of this, all of which I’ll accept and face. People will be made as whole as possible with what funds are available. This’ll be managed outside my influence. Sorry will fall rightly flat and on deaf ears, but I’m sorry not the less. For anyone not wanting to become another cliché example of how to fuck up your life – fix your character flaws, mental and destructive tendencies before you find success, otherwise you’ll just build on wet sand. I’ll keep comms open for anyone that needs it.