Hi friends. I had a manic episode on Jan. 29th & made an attempt to take my life. 2+ hours emergency surgery, 48 hours watch, a week in the BHU... I just wanted to quickly let ya know I'm making strides with my recovery.
Still won't be very active here for now, but much love.
I’m feeling better about myself each and every day since I came home from the hospital.
Aside from Dad’s physical abuse, mental abuse was the worst, which destroyed my self worth. Even after what happened, last time I saw my Mum, she made me feel like shit. But I persevere. 👏
I lost my best friend and band mate 14 years ago tonight because of a fucking gun. My other friend/band mate is who shot him while being a drunk fucking idiot. He got a hold of my other friend’s gun who had just got back from the Marines.
This is why I fucking hate guns! 😡😭
I forgot how hard it is to connect with tweeps here. But I HAD to delete my old 801HC account to focus on my mental health, which I’ve done over the last two years. Just hope I can regain some of the amazing followers I once had. ❤️
My apologies.
My night terrors must have triggered something. Cause I never talk about my past in corrections. I’m usually extremely private about it.
Think I need to take a few days to reflect on that, and put it back behind me. 😞
Depression is a fucker.
Had an attempt in 2018. Wife had this book made for me. She contacted all of my family & friends (including ones I haven’t seen in years). They wrote about past memories, and their love for me. It changed me. YOU R LOVED! 💙
I’ve been depressed lately, and haven’t really been taking care of myself.
But I had such a great morning taking the kiddo to school, and this picture got my mind back in the right place.
I brought a blanket for the ride this morning, because fvck the cold weather.
Anyone else’s kiddo rearrange their room at least once a month?
My parents never let me do that as a kid, but we let Ollie do what she wants with her room. It’s how she expresses herself. 💙
Doing much better today. Yesterday was the hardest day I’ve had since leaving the hospital.
Thank you all for your love and support. It means the world to me. 💙💙💙
My best friend’s baby shower/memorial.
Unfortunately they lost their baby boy Anders a couple of weeks ago. And baby Lydia is still fighting, but getting better every day.💙😞
YESSSSS!
We appealed the high schools denial of our Daughter.
Just received approval for her today to go to the high school. All of her friends are going there, and it’s soops close to our house well. 👏👏👏
Daughter is stoked, and I’m one happy Dad! 💙
When Biden got elected, the Wife and I had Champaign, then took a ride around town with windows down blasting the song “Fuck Donald Trump”.
Lookin forward to repeating that this year. 😎💙👏
So my full first name is Christopher, which I despise.
But ya know how parents say your whole name when you’re in deep shit?
Well my Wife calls me Christafuck when I’ve officially pissed her off. 🤣🤷♂️
@smc429
Living in Utah… I also agree that’s a great sign.
The svicid3 rate here is ridiculous because of that shit! 😡
I’ve known too many good people who have taken their lives because of it. Why is it so hard to accept someone for who they are?! 😭
I don’t know what the hell. This is the second time in a few months that his snout has gotten swollen. 😭
Gave him some allergy medicine, but I can’t figure out what is causing it..
Something is going on with Brother. Back at the hospital.
I’ve had enough heartaches and unfortunate events this year, let alone the last 3 years.
Trying to stay positive, but sometimes it’s hard to keep that mindset when it’s just one thing after another.
I’m hurting. 😞
I’m working through my shit, and feeling better. 💙
PTSD is a douche. Mix that with OCD, and I can’t handle anything, or think logically. It makes me not myself sometimes.
I’m open about my mental health because there are too many peeps out there who don’t get help they need.
I didn’t share this with you all yet. My lovely kiddo got this for me when I came home from the hospital.
I will respect and keep this stone with me for the rest of my natural life. 💙
Interesting I see people’s bio show blue crew so they attacked me that I am bot because of my languages okay where my respect? I’m Deaf and ASL my first language. Again I said be respect and friendly! I’m happy see my friends! Big hugs! I am so huge fan of Biden/Harris 2024!💙
Lacking self confidence today..
Major Depressive Disorder sucks. The ketamine is definitely helping me, but I can slip into these moods out of nowhere..
Fvck it, I’m applying for either other opportunities within my company, or a new avenue with a new company.
8 years of sh!t raises, workload keeps increasing w/out promotion or reasonable raise, and unbelievable stress that led me to a very dark place I barely survived.. 😞
I haven’t drank in weeks, and I forgot to renew my license. I don’t ever think about my birthday, so I didn’t realize it expired today.
So I’m outside the liquor store waiting in the car while my Wife is grabbing the goods.
I feel right back in my high school days right now. 😎
I was hesitant to go to the ball game because I’m an introvert. It was with my Wife’s company.
But one of her work peeps has an introverted husband like myself, and we talked about metal the whole time. It was rad.. 👏💙🤘
Ya’ll wannabe ‘American Patriots’ think Millennials are an inconvenience to your tone-deaf beliefs?
Just wait until my Daghter’s generation starts voting, which isn’t far away at all. 👏😎
Y’all are fucked..🖕
I’ve released frustrations on some peeps today. I’m so sorry 💙. I’ve been struggling lately with my OCD, Anxiety, and depression.
A bad day of OCD is literally anxiety with rocket fuel. Like, sit in the corner in the dark.
You can’t truly understand OCD, unless you have it..
Psych prescribed wrong amount of one of my meds. Saw her after release from BHU, told her all med adjustments, & she took notes. Still submitted original dose. WTF?
This med isn’t good to abruptly stop. It’s what led to my psychosis episode in the first place. Feel let down 😔
Hey everyone my friend Emilio
@minimac_92
is back and would love to connect with old friends and new could you please give him a follow? He does follow back resisters after vetting 💯 He is one of my favorite people and he fights for Democracy all day everyday 💙
@MAGAgpsmith
And you’re proud of that… 🤦♂️
Y’all’s love for gvns, hate, insurrectionist treachery, and anger is what fuels you far right hypocrites. 🙄
Doesn’t sound very American to me.
My good friend gets out of rehab today.
Im happy, but equally cautious. I kicked in 2006, and never looked back. Hate to say it, but I don’t how much longer I can help him if he doesn’t try harder this time.
He lost 10k last time he got out.
Hoping he’s finally ready.
Fuuuck.
Brother will be in the hospital until after the holiday.
He had blood clots they discovered during surgery today.
Looks like we’re spending part of the holidays at the hospital. It’s all good, as we will be with our family. 💙
I only have 2 felonies on my record, and I almost ended it all because society wasn’t accepting me back after my almost 3 year sentence. I was a heroin addict, and committed burglary & forgery.
Fuckface McGee has 34 felonies and is running for President.
Let that sink in..
Um.. I was not expecting that amount of new friendly peeps from my tweet. 😅
Ya’ll are so rad, and thank you much. 💙
Time for me to retire for the night. I’ll start vetting and following the rest tomorrow. Sweet dreams. 😊
I have officially graduated from my physical therapy. Water bottle was a nice little parting gift. 👏💙😊
I am feeling happy and accomplished in the moment.💙
My short term disability came through! Couldn’t have happened at a better time.
My case is unique, since I was in full blown psychosis when I had my attempt. Typically self harm is next to impossible with self harm cases.
I’m so grateful! 💙😊👏 ;;;;
Fuck it. I guess I’ll go to this fucking Christmas Party, and challenge myself.
I’ll consider it exposure therapy, I guess.
Those with extremely high Anxiety and OCD, which is the recipe for creating the most introvert characters of life, will understand. 💙