Lou 🦦 relapse era
@Enchanted_Lou
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20, she/her, ana-b/p ~ sw: 52.2 kg, cw: 37.2 kg, lw: 35.5 kg ugw: 34 kg | 156cm, bmi 15.3
Joined May 2023
(bodycheck) May -> June . the way that I'm 10 lbs lighter but there's basically no visible change 🤡
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my ed therapist said i have the lowest bmi out of all her patients 😁 i feel like i've won the ana olympics
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no way my dad just beat me in the best anorexic war 💀
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(tw/ bodycheck).August -> October .wtf have i even been doing the past 2 months 💀
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is it normal to go from being the best anorexic to binging all the time uncontrollably
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the other girl at the ed clinic was skinnier than me
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(bodycheck).i hate to ask this but objectively do i even look underweight bc i feel like i look so painfully average 😭💀
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safe foods are so weird because why would i rather have a 200 calorie protein bar than an apple 💀
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(tw/ bodychecks). lowkey face reveal bc idgaf anymore 😁
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me after basically dropping out of uni to pursue my ed full time
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(tw/ bc). i'd do fucking anything to get back to this weight 💀💀 i'm fucking massive now it's mortifying
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just binged when i could have gotten away with starving
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what's the science behind hitting a new lw and then immediately ruining it by binging 💀
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to be hungry and to choose not to eat is the most powerful thing in the world
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when you're laughing but you can't wrap your fingers all the way around your arm yet so nothings funny
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if you saw me irl would you think i was disordered 💀💀💀 pls be honest 😭
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how ed services think you look if you don't have 2 pieces of toast with butter and jam with every meal
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me going downstairs and seeing my mum has made my favourite food (it has 500 million calories)
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i'm not anorexic, not bulimic but a secret 3rd thing
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i feel like my disorder makes me a better person and also prettier
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pre ed i didn't even fuck with chocolate that much but now i crave it every second of the day
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my stomach rumbling makes me feel like such a fattie because why tf am i begging for food
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whenever my mum starts throwing words like "skeletal" or "emaciated" it makes me want to hop on here and show her what an actually skinny person looks like 😭
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i want to be so thin it's the first thing people notice about me
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how it feels to be exercising in a "burning off a massive binge" way rather than a "pilates it girl" way
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(tw/ bodychecks). getting weighed on monday and either i've gained weight and i'll hate myself or i haven't and my meal plan will increase and i'll hate myself 💀 they keep talking about sending me to a specialist unit which wtf i'm nowhere near skinny enough it's insane
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its always the people who've never had eating disorders that yap about them the loudest
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as far as i'm concerned purging means the binge was 0 cals 😝
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how i see myself before doing my ab workout vs how i see myself after
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(tw/ bodycheck). the hatred i have for my lower stomach area can not be put into words i fear
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if i'm not 100% devoted to my ed at all times i feel like a worthless failure
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(tw/ bodycheck). i feel fatter now than i did in the first pic (my hw) 💀
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you could abandon me in the middle of an uninhabited desert and my greedy ass would still find something to binge on
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can you be sent to inpatient/ ed treatment at bmi 15s? /gen
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the way her friend absolutely ate her up in every picture needs to be studied.
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the "fuck it I've already over ate might as well eat everything" war just claimed another victim
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i deserve to be burnt alive at the stake for how greedy and undisciplined i am and that's me putting it nicely
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curtesy of edreddit they outdid themselves this time 😭
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would you guys even consider bmi 14.9 as small/ thin???? in my head that's basically healthy and i feel like i've still got so much weight i need to lose but everyone is trying to force me to gain and i might even get sent ip
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my brain be like oh you're lonely? i'm gonna give you a disorder that is so isolating
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if you binge in the middle of the night it doesn't count Anna Rexia told me herself xx
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breaking my silence: i've gained 1kg but haven't changed my bio stats
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i'm literally barely even anorexic anymore like I restrict for 2 days and then have massive binges and I've only lost like half a pound in the past month 💀💀
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genuine question does anyone actually know the difference between disordered eating and an eating disorder because every professional i've asked have said completely different things 😭
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i'm screaming my mum weighed out this massive portion of yogurt and granola and i said i wouldn't eat it if there was that much so she just took the whole thing away and said i couldn't have any of it?? 😭😭 okkkk ana bestie 🥰🤞
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not a single second goes by when i'm not thinking about my eating disorder and what i look like
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the anorexia has been anorexiaing so good this week y'all 😭 my pre puberty bras fit now and i'm back at my lw 😁🤞
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(tw/ bodycheck). what 2 weeks of nonstop b/p does to a mf 😭💀
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mfs who post their binges on youtube are really the ed world's strongest soldiers 💀🙏
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i used to find 24 hr fasts absolute light work but now i need a little snack every few hours wtf has happened to me 💀
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have you guys ever cried because you're so hungry or am i just greedy
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i don't understand how other people look so good at bmi 19-21 ish but i looked fucking vile
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me after choosing the higher calorie option on a mealspo food poll
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my anorexia watching me eat 7 chocolate bars in 3 minutes
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"you're so thin you have to gain weight 🥺🤞" and then this is me 💀
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how tf do you low bmi mfs function i feel like i'm dying at high 14s 😭😭
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how my dad feels after saying "why don't you just eat more so you can exercise and look slim but be healthy"
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me if eating something to stop myself binging but ending up binging anyway was illegal
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how come literally everyone else on the planet looks good at a healthy normal weight accept for me 💀
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me 5 seconds ago regaining consciousness half way through my "fuck this ed!" moment
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anorexia would seem a lot less glamorous if people knew how much time is spent worrying about shitting
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how people in the comments of my bodychecks think I'm gonna react to them calling me fat
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(tw/ bodychecks). the fattest bmi 15 user has been found 😁
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protein bars are both a safe food and a binge food for me
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idk why but i find the fact that my parents know i eat food so humiliating and degrading 🧍♀️
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me after remembering to chew and spit rather than b/p
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me when i see random strangers on the tl say they're choosing recovery
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i'm convinced my body is a scientific anomaly and i don't actually burn any calories when i exercise
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@virgincals being in secondary school with an ed is so easy but being at uni while disordered is hell it makes no sense 💀.
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someone posted this on tiktok and its so beautiful does anyone know who the artist is 😭
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feeling fat but also hungry has got to be a criminal offence
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i wouldn't wish anorexia on my worst enemy not because i don't want them to suffer but because i don't want them thinner than me
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when it comes to myself i consider anything over bmi 18 as overweight
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me watching my mum put my favourite chocolate bars in the shopping bag
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me if reactive eating after long periods of starvation wasn't a thing
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