everything just feels empty. sex, going out with friends, being around the people i care, doing the things i used to enjoy. all of it. i dont understand what the next step is. and im too scared to ask.
i always do something selfish like i am now. I wish i could handle my own problems but no matter how hard i try i just shove myself into a corner and sit. idle.
i just
dont know anymore.
i dont feel like im a real person
i feel separated, like a disgusting piece of shit who can never get his act straight
a useless person who doesnt deserve to get time wasted on them.
i feel like i deserve to feel so cold and alone even when people surround me and ask me if im ok or try and help. i just waste peoples time and i cant control it anymore
i just hog attention and let people down. i dont deserve anything yet i have more than most.