My wife and I bought our first and hopefully forever home, a dream we’ve been talking about the past few years now. Horses in the backyard, stream, garden, trails, barn, everything. Thanks to my monster ex for helping make this possible, glad he was punished & we can move on🏡👩❤️💋👩
New video today is of me talking about my relapse - what was going on in my mind in the moments leading up and after. I hope it can help others struggling in some way, much love and gratitude to the kindness you’ve shown these past two weeks. 🙏🏼
Weed, it’s time you and I broke up. I know it won’t be easy, but this relationship has been unhealthy for so long, & it’s time I finally quit you. Won’t happen overnight, but at least I’m finally ready to be present and have a healthier relationship with my mind, partner and life
Lmao when you realize people you used to call friends unfollowed you and you’re all too happy to do the same because y’all just don’t vibe with each other anymore.👏🏼Fuck following influencers JUST because they are in your field, follow the REAL ones you stand with & believe in👏🏼
This video is so helpful and important for warriors navigating through trauma and those wanting to support them in a safe and supportive way. Thank you for talking about this
@stevieboebi
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Please please PLEASE unfollow me if you can’t respect/support/understand the need for wearing masks in public during the pandemic! I promise I don’t want you here because we have nothing in common & I will not welcome ignorance in my space. Go be grossly selfish somewhere else!
Papaw just passed, 1927-2020 and so much love and kindness for others in his lifetime. His last words to me Sunday were Love you too Sug. Hold your families close, wishing I could be home with them 💛
It’s official I got the job!! I start next Wednesday Personal Training, I couldn’t be more excited or thrilled! Thank you for believing in me through the ups and downs. 🖤
Since I can’t name names, just want to give a big fuck you shout out to all the porn sites that hosted all 7 assault videos of me for years with ads. FUCK YOU for doing this to me and other victims! You’ll be brought down eventually for this, your reckoning will arrive🖕🏼🖕🏼🖕🏼
Bria got me a meeting with a top fitness modeling agency here & I have a meeting next week! I’ve been talking about this for about 2.5 years now & she’s made it happen❤️Speaking at colleges, live-streaming, meeting you = almost no nerves but singing onstage & modeling😳😬😆
I said a few weeks ago I’d like to forgive my ex someday but honestly it’s more about forgiving me. I actually hope he’s slowly rotting in his living hell & a life of misery. He brought these addictions upon me & best thing I can do is stay sober as a big fuck you🖕🏼2 weeks today!
I’ve taken the last week and a half to just be with family and breathe and even apply for a regular job because the peace of just not caring as much about being an influencer feels so much better. Social media as a profession will detrimentally affect your mental health. Period.
Down this week after losing Neko & Bria travelling on same day. Liam is having a hard time, can’t be alone without crying out for me or looking for Bria. He will be grateful to have her home(me too❤️) tmrw. We lost our best pal, so of course the week feels down -kitty or human.
If it weren’t for using weed for my ptsd I genuinely don’t think I’d be here today, alcohol would’ve taken me long ago. Do what u need to do to cope & stay ALIVE, then work on healthier coping skills. It’s taken me 10 years to ready for healthier ones & that’s ok -I’m here for it
But to be honest today is just heavy. All I can think of is the videos on a running loop and how they’ll never, ever stop being seen. Me unable to consent or defend myself. Fuck. Fuck. It’s just so heavy. I’ll always keep fighting but it just hurts still so much. Saying it helps.
Don’t ever apologize for being yourself. You are enough, you are enough, YOU ARE ENOUGH. Those who love you will love you without condition, and for living your truth!Remember that when you are taking account of the people in your life. Celebrate and embrace your uniqueness😘🖤💙
Sweet Dad is having heart surgery today to clear blockage from his heart attack a few months ago, if you could send some positive healing vibes to him our family would be very appreciative. 🙏🏼💙
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for drinking and being a whore even though the revenge porn videos showed him having sex with my blacked out body and the comments included “she looks dead” and “it looks like you’re fucking a corpse.”