Brian Wilkie
@Bryz1
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My Twitters my recovery journey, Take what you like & leave the rest
Scotland, United Kingdom
Joined January 2010
500 days away from my suicide attempt, 500 days into talking openly about my depression 500 days clean of alcoholism 500 days into recovery and by God. I feel good .500 days of fitness and from 15 stone 7 to now 12 stone . that’s there for everyone action & effort & changes ❤️
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After my failed suicide attempt on 16th January 2017 . When I was no longer able to change the situation, I was then challenged to change myself Today I know Sometimes you go through your worst. to arrive at your best 917 days today clean & sober ( photo of then to now )
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Dear Tesco, Asda, Sainsbury's, Lid, Aldi, Waitrose, Morrisons, and all other stores that have self checkout. You are heading towards almost exclusively self-checkout now. The lady checking receipts at the exit was stopping.everyone. I didn't choose to participate in that
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600days away from my suicide attempt, 600days into talking openly about my depression 600 days clean of alcoholism 600days into recovery and by God. I feel good .600 days of fitness and from 15 stone 7 to now 11 stone 10lbs that’s there for everyone action & effort & changes ❤️
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I remember my daughter tweeted about how proud my recovery made her & it went viral. To me this is bigger than that this is massive. This is the icing on top of my recovery and I will keep keeping on recovering to see my other daughters grow up to follow Ellie’s footsteps. X Dad.
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5 years ago today I turned my sons life support machine off after he committed suicide and became brain dead. That’s the hardest thing about Mental Health I never seen it coming & the ripple effects hurts everyone. Today I hope I doing my son Proud banging on about Recovery
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I have been on this Earth for 53 years today. Happy birthday to Sober me !
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Today I celebrated a year on top of my 500 days. Now 866 days away from it all 🤝.
500 days away from my suicide attempt, 500 days into talking openly about my depression 500 days clean of alcoholism 500 days into recovery and by God. I feel good .500 days of fitness and from 15 stone 7 to now 12 stone . that’s there for everyone action & effort & changes ❤️
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Today l'm 2386 days clean & sober.I'm trying. I'm trying to be happy. I'm trying to get better. I'm trying to stay focused. I'm trying not to get upset. I'm trying not to overreact. I'm trying not to overthink. All I can do is try. No one is perfect. Don't expect me to be.
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No Gym 💪!! Today was hard enough for me to lift my head of the pillow. 4 years ago today my son committed suicide I am just trying to lift my spirits to keep keeping on one day at a time ! . I bloody miss him so such but am grateful today to be strong enough to carry on ❤️
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Exactly 1 year ago on this exact moment I tried to take my own life suffering from Depression. I was in the darkest place I have ever experienced and wanted it just to end.After a year long recovery program I now have a life beyond my wildest dreams #mentalhealth #breakthestigma
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Tonight I celebrate my sons time he had on earth ( God you loved Nando’s ) No one in this world is pure and perfect. If you avoid people for their little mistakes you will always be alone. So judge less and love more. Enjoy a magical Birthday son x ❤️
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Mental Health .suicide awareness day . I’m 968 days away from my failed attempt.My son Jordan committed suicide and I find peace in coming to a gym lifting weights called Jordan I feel the pain I push through lifting helps kills the pain of my broken heart 💔 it’s helping me
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2030 . Yeh that’s right today marks 2030 continuous days clean and sober .And the last 10 days what I have been through I could have easily said FUCK IT and through the towel in. But I never I kept keeping on because I know deep down picking up the FIRST DRINK & it’s game over
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My last drink nearly killed me .Today I am 2534 consecutive days .Clean and Sober
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Today I happily enjoying my 2490th consecutive day in a row clean and sober. I’m proud to say I found a great life inside my recovery program .Its a lifestyle choice i love ❤️
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Today marks my .2500 days away from my suicide attempt, .2500 days into talking openly about my depression .2500 days clean & sober .2500 days into my recovery and by God, I now feel good .2500 days of fitness .2500 practicing to get better .2500 sharing my journey on twitter/x
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Today I am actually buzzing to going on a date with my wife . It’s great to feel that excitement like it is our first date . been married to her for 21 years too . feels better today though ❤️ ( Today I don’t have a depressed state of mind holding me back from enjoying life )
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“ONE DAY YOU WILL TELL YOUR STORY OF HOW YOU OVERCAME WHAT YOU WENT THROUGH AND IT WILL BE SOMEONE ELSE’S SURVIVAL GUIDE.” .5 years ago today my daughter tweeted this and it changed my life forever. “I have kept keeping on”
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1000 days clean and sober . To wake, to breathe, to be alive. three gifts most people fully appreciate. only when they are about to lose them. I am grateful & humble to my recovery it saved my life and today let’s me live my life beyond my wildest dreams . Thank You
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I’ve hit another milestone in my recovery journey as today marks the day of 8 years clean & sober .Happy Birthday to me & .May peace be with you too
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327k views I am definitely get the word out #ItsOkNotToBeOk.
Brian was too embarrassed to ask for help after his son's suicide. This is how he changed his life.
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I’m absolutely buzzing from head to toe … why . ? I am 5 years clean & sober today & living a life beyond my wildest dreams
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Today I am 2000 days clean and sober and I actually like being me today and I am happy with that… .It’s all about the ripple effect
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Happy Heavenly Birthday Son, ❤️ I love you and miss you ❤️Now I will continue to bang the drum about mental health awareness . please come together to help put an END to Suicide 🤝 Today I try listening to the suffering & no judging them but supporting them into a recovery
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God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, .courage to change the things I can, .and wisdom to know the difference. Happy birthday to Me 🙏🏻 .Today I am 6 years clean & sober .Unity, Recovery & Service
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And no, I shan't complain…. If the lasting memory of me is the sign of living a better life .As I remember when I wanted what I.currently have now…. And I am so grateful. Today I am proud to be 2799 days clean & sober & gambling free
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I have not had butterflies 🦋 in my gut for years ! Is it because I am 2 years clean & sober tomorrow living my life free from addictions & depression & anxiety . I really am buzzing ! I never thought this day would ever be possible 729 days ago. I will be counting years tomorrow.
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6 years ago today after a failed suicide attempt I found the courage and strength to admit and accept I had a problem with addictions, depression & mental health & grief Through a recovery journey I have made it to be 6 years clean & sober today. There is Hope .Change is possible
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Today I am 2 years Clean & Sober I have had to fight my demons to get here. I have had to change only me as a person & my lifestyle. Giving 100% efforts into my Recovery Journey of which I shared daily on Twitter now rewards me with a new positive life. Recovery is possible amen
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There is no better feeling than crying my eyes out. The loss of my Son to Suicide yes it broke me but I found strength to get to where I am today and turn my life around . I totally apologise to everyone because I ain’t as strong as some think I am just Dad trying his best today
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4 years away from my suicide attempt, 4 years into talking openly about my depression, 4 years clean of alcoholism, 4 years into recovery & by God I feel good, 4 years of fitness from 217lbs to now 172lbs. That’s there for everyone by applying action & effort & changes ❤️
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My son Jordan sadly committed suicide on 20/6/2014 suffering from mental health issues . On 16/1/2017 I tried suicide to join him feeling emotionally exhausted . LETS BREAK THE STIGMA . my life is slowly getting better knowing I am not alone @ellzthelephant thank you
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Happy birthday to my son in heaven .Jordan is my higher power .Every day now for 968 days in my new recovery journey I have picked him up and put you on my shoulder & I share my best days ever with his soul .Till now my life was a mystery now I am going to make it a history. ❤
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"Peace is what I achieved when I let go of what no longer serves me.” .Today I am 2814 days clean & sober & gamble free .“I hold onto my Recovery as it serves me well & the ripple effects are amazing”
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Today I am celebrating 2755 days clean and sober but this is not a competition, .it isn't a race.I got a spring in my step and a smile on my face.A head full of hopes and a hand full of dreams.A heart so full that it's bursting at the seams.And I’m watching the world go by
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Today I have made a massive milestone to reach 1500 days clean & sober as it took all my strength to pull myself out of that mentally dark place, to fight all my demons & go against everything I thought was right, getting out my comfort zones and practicing changing. I did it ❤️
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3years away from my suicide attempt.3years into talking openly about my depression .3years clean of alcoholism .3years into recovery and by God I feel good.3years off hard work breaking the stigma that once surrounded mental health .Change is possible it’s there for everyone ❤️
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Why do I keep banging the drums on Mental Health, suicide, depression, addictions etc Take a lovely look at your child , husband, wife etc then imagine them suffering in silence then killing them self. awareness prevents this I openly believe my sharing helps . I have already
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I have shared 50,000 tweets. I have been banned a few times, I’ve had death threats & dogs abuse from some people & love & respect from others, I have helped over 25,000 people on here in that time, it’s been some journey & worth it. Today I am 1681 days clean & sober .THE END
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Blast from the past .Who remembers Pepe jeans ? .Did you have one of these ?
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To be able to spend quality time with my daughters clean and sober with no alcoholic or gambling thoughts is just freedom and that has only took me 530 days of recovery programs to get here ! Recovering daily ❤️ Keeping my depression at bay 🤝
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Hopefully this tweet can save even one person from suicide .This is my son Jordan who took his own life Suicide is real .The pain , The hurt , The loss .Mental Health is real if someone is so low this is sometimes where depressed thoughts take you Don’t Go There .ask for Help
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Tuesday 10 September.World Suicide Prevention Day .My sons birthday is Wednesday 11th of September .Jordan took his own life it broke everybody’s heart 💔.How do you tell a kid her hero is not coming back? .How do you explain Suicide? .If you feel suicidal please ask for help
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When life gets hard, just remember that nothing lasts forever. You've been happy before and you'll be happy again. You might not see it today, but everything is.GOING TO BE OKAY.
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I will never get over my sons Jordan’s death to suicide, or the pain trying to explain to his step sisters that he is not coming back , but today living a life in recovery becoming the best I can be one day at times helps me stay alive and hold myself together enough to change
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I am proud to be 2148 days clean and sober today. I know sobriety & recovery are not for everyone but I certainly needed it. I had to change… .Can you identify the sober me ?
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Facts about 1969 . Neil Armstrong walking on the moon was in 1969 . The internet was invented in 1969. I was born in 1969 . Today I am 1969 consecutive days in a row clean & sober . The last won is a miracle 🙏🏻
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I’m 50 Today and I feel proud to be the best version of myself today 1045 clean & sober .Tell the truth and wrap it in proof . If you want to be successful you must respect one rule: never lie to yourself. enjoy a wonderful Wednesday ❤️
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One photo I hour or so ago now the other photo 21 months ago, Different that day ! about 1 or so hours after that photo was took I attempted suicide , now why do I share my journey daily because I share that change is possible. Look at me hiding behind that smile 21 months ago❤️
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Someone asked me why I feel the need to keep talking about recovery on Twitter. I just do not think 🤔 he understands it may just be someone else’s lifeline. They might just need to hear it that day , knowing they are not alone and recovery is possible ❤️I will keep keeping on.
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Practicing one day at a time .I have become 2700 days clean and sober - what a journey it’s been .Consistently working on myself is key .Trust the process .It works when you work it 🙏
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Why do I keep banging the drum about mental health, depression, suicide awareness, 1 , I been there 2 once your dead there is no coming back . My son died after hanging him self nobody can prepare anyone for this , I now try preventing it❤️ I just might be helping your family now.
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Took me a couple of Years of 100% changes to get my Mental Health into becoming a sober gentleman! Tonight I take my wife on my arm ❤️ I am Proud
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4 years ago today I was celebrating 6 months clean & sober in Spain .Today I am 4 years 6 months & celebrations continue this time in England on holiday drink soda & lime .Loving Life ❤️😎😎😎😎😎
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The time has come where I have shared enough recovery on my Twitter page .I said at the start even if by sharing my journey would help one person .It would be worth it. ! I helped lot more than one. Thank You all .it’s been an amazing journey .Goodbye Twitter & God Bless
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900 days away from my suicide attempt, 900 days into talking openly about my depression 900 days clean of alcoholism 900 days into recovery and by God. I feel good, 900 days of fitness and from 15 stone 7 to now 12 stone . that’s there for everyone action & effort & changes ❤️
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My first Coca Cola in 1292 days .When I stopped drinking I stopped everything except water - soda water & lime & tea & coffee .I lost the weight, I have stayed clean and sober for 1292 days and today I celebrated by enjoying a cold bottle on the beach with Mrs W. & my daughters
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It might not mean much to you but it started as a dream for my kids & .I finally made a dream come true on under a £450 budget .Buzzing is an understatement….
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I done something special tonight I run number 18 of the 5k’s in 55 days, I done it in 20.12 my fastest yet finishing on speed 12.4 . but the special thing I done was accepting a friends request from my Dad who hasn’t spoken to me for 1788 days, Change is the only constant 😉
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Today I have gained 626 days extra in life after my failed suicide attempt. 626 days away from that broken lost lad I was , I have applied change into every part of my life and share my experiences & changes, I trying effortlessly to give others guidance & hope & even a life line.
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Teaching my 5 year old daughter Heidi to go without stabilisers. 5 minutes later she has it mastered it all about balance and overcoming the fear . she is buzzing & I am so proud. father / daughter moment worth remembering to good not to share . I’m loving life simples
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“Nothing can prepare you for the shock of losing someone special.” .Rest in peace Leanne x 💔 .It’s been 13 days now without you and I feel the world is standing still .My wife’s beautiful sister .My sister n law .Leanne you are missed pal, .You may be gone but not forgotten
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One of the greatest pleasures in life is doing what other people say you cannot do. 😉 . To all those who doubted me .Today I am 1565 days clean & sober .Recovery is possible
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4 years ago today this went viral #breakthestigma It’s okay not to be okay❤️ anyone remember ?
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I am actually amazed to how much my depression & my anxiety and my addictions to alcohol, to gambling & to drugs held me back in life ! Today 800 days clean & sober & Fuck I am having this I am telling the world 🌍 this is massive to me. Recovery is possible 🤝 Life Changes.
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Time has found a way of simultaneously reminding me of how long you have been gone and how quickly it has passed me by. To absent friends & family. Happy heavenly birthday son 🙏🏻
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I’m not the fat beer bellyaching/backaches, liver kicking piss head Nor gambling like a lunatic or going through daily depression struggling with multitasking life & demons No now I’m none of the above nowadays I’m 1103 clean & sober everyday just getting better 1 day & a time
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Brilliant . I spend £80 last night in one pub & never had one alcoholic drink just soda & lime but purchased a few alcoholic beverages for my mates oh and we were the last to leave & I drove home. Take it I put the taxis drivers out jobs to 😂.
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700days away from my suicide attempt, 700days talking openly about my depression 700days clean of my alcoholism 700days now recovery and God I feel good, 700days of fitness & from then 15 stone 7 to now maintaining 12 stone that’s there for everyone action & effort & changes ❤️
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4 photos from the 4 different times I have now been to Spain clean & sober within my 909 days of my recovery. This is why I believe in my recovery as it works. I should be dead as suicide attempts don’t always let people live this I know. Change happens in recovery go for it 🤝❤️
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Today is a double whammy .I am celebrating 7 years clean and sober one day at a time .I have lifted myself out of the 💩
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What people never understand is that depression isn’t about the outside. It’s about the inside. You may see someone smiling but inside they’re dying. Help people around you. Listen their stories, Save them . please don’t take it as a joke.
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I have found the paradox, that if I love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love. ❤ I love you Jordan my son in heaven
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Happy birthday to me .I am blessed to be living my best life, enjoying my time passing through peacefully one day at a time clean & sober
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Because I got a higher power 🙏🏻 .Today I am 1604 days clean & sober .I don’t do it alone
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If you want to fly; .give up everything that is weighting you down. I gave up alcohol & other addictions .gave up depression & anxiety .gave up negative thinking .gave up being unhappy with my life .Total of 966 days clean & sober practicing to get better I’m learning to fly
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Never forget who was there for you when no one else was .My true rock is Mrs W. ❤️ .A family day out celebrating 1707 days clean sober, .Enjoy your Sunday Tweeter friends x
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Happy birthday to me .I am 51 years old today .I am totally buzzing with life
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I'm so glad I turned the corner, .'Cause I was sick of feelin' rough & .I was getting paranoid about the silliest of stuff “.I’m so glad i turned that corner .7 years clean and sober today and I really do feel so much better .Sobriety was the greatest gift l ever gave myself.
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If it was not for my daughter Ellie putting this tweet up last year in November my journey on Twitter would not be where it is today. Thank You ❤️ one day at a time got me there and one day at a time got me here today 😉
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Buzzing to be out in Edinburgh with my soul mate celebrating our 25th wedding anniversary gift from our daughters & my 5 year anniversary being clean & sober living better days
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4 years ago today here is I was . lost, depressed, dying on the inside .Today here is where I am . Now 1431 days clean and sober .Through my recovery program .I am living my best days ever .Change is possible . Become the changes you want to see
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5 years ago today I was on it, I was drinking anything everywhere .Today I’m 13 days away from being 5 years clean & sober
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944 days clean and sober & off anti depressant & sleeping tablets 944 days into my own recovery & fitness journey working on becoming the best version of myself. Change is possible as 944 days ago I was just numb & sick & tired of being sick & tired & attempted to end it all .
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900 days with no alcohol 🍺 ( clean & sober) I am buzzing & I mean buzzing Self Pride , self discipline, self belief, self awareness, selfish in recovery made it possible. to think I used to think getting out my tits was cool 😎 I was definitely delusional. This was how I rolled
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‘I chose sober because I wanted a better life. I stay sober because I got one’ When I got sober, I thought giving up was saying goodbye to all the fun and all the sparkle, and it turned out to be just the opposite. That’s when the sparkle started for me & I shine for my kids
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Thank you to everyone for all the amazing messages and support 🤝 I really am just a lad in recovery recovering the best I can one day at a time & sharing my journey & experiences to let people know change is possible because it is ok not to be ok. Big Love to my wife & kids ❤️.
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1001 days ago everything was different. And now that I look back, 1001 days clean and sober can do a lot to a person .Thank You all for your support over the last 1001 days
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Thursday thought of the day “Ships don’t sink because of the water around them; ships sink because of the water that gets in them. Don’t let what’s happening around you get inside you and weigh you down.”
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