if magkauyab nako puhon. i will give him all the assurance that he needs. i will not let him overthink things (kay kabalo ko sa feeling ani). i will treasure what we have. i'll show my appreciation in all forms. i can be both his best friend and his partner.
my recent situationship taught me a bunch of lessons (a thread):
1. if he is insensitive, and he's not willing to change a thing, leave
2. if he can't assure u and give u what u deserve, bruh he's not committed, leave
this year's Palakasan, aside sa bias gyd nako ang CED-IDS. But still grabe ko kaamaze sa performances sa CHS og CCS, considering their population number??? Man, that's pure talent and skills gyd oi! Salute!🫡
totoo pala 'yung sinasabi nila na, "the more chances you give, the less they value you," kasi alam nila na hindi ka marunong magalit, kaya patuloy ka nilang sasaktan. hanggat paulit-ulit mong binibigyan ng pagkakataon, paulit-ulit din na hindi nila maiintindihan feelings mo.
ako yung taong always "liked" but never pursued. yung hanggang talking stage lang, yung temporary na happiness niya tapos tagatanggap ng trauma. yung lesson kumbaga. kasi sa huli, alam ko na sa iba pa rin siya magcocommit.
maka-insecure mag scroll sa socmed do. I see posts and stories of couples na sweet kaayo and all. Why are everyone treated right tapos ako kay always the trial and error and the lesson? hantud kanus-a?
pasensya na kayo sa tweets ko ha, minsan kase horny ako, minsan din feeling ko broken ako kahit wala naman nanakit, tas lately feeling ko nasa Lover era ako kahit wala pa naman jowa. remix na nangyayari sa buhay ko. pota
i'm sick and tired of the bare minimum, being the least priority and not treated right. u failed to make me feel that i'm enough. gikapoy nakog overthink.
piece of advice, don't beg. someone out there is willing to do more for you. to do something you deserve, yung the best. so, don't settle for less, bestie.
if this love is real. i hope we'll see each other again. not now, but maybe years after? At some point, we'll connect again. Next time, we'll do it right. But for now, let's go back to being strangers with each other's memories and secrets. Bye for now, my love.
usahay dili nako magets ang point sa situationship. after sa ila-ila na stage kay nakarealized ka nga naibog ka niya, naibog pod siya nimo. kung mag uyab na lang diay mo diretso? yawa man mo oi
so, there was a funny incident earlier while nagkaon ko sa usual carenderia near my boarding house. the daughter of the owner approached and asked me, "kuya, ikaw na lang lagi magkaon, aha nato imong kuyog diay?".ngee chika kaayo ka tih, nakamove-on nako unta kamo pod hahaha
now, i realized that everything happens for a reason. my hurting was a divine intervention to save me from the clown and the circus he brings. this is a sigh of relief.
it's been a while since I've written a poem for someone. I'm hoping u can read this, and i would like u to know that i'm okay and i don't have any grudges on u. for quite some time what we had was real. thank u, tep!
i like it when someone remembers even the smallest detail about myself. it makes me think that he truly cares and pays attention even to the tiniest bits of me. from the things that capture my interest to something that i lowkey dislike. i feel secured all the time.
Don't settle for a person who is not sure about you. Come to think of it, you love genuinely and selflessly. So, don't just give it to a person who does not appreciate and reciprocate what you gave. It's not being selfish. It's about knowing your worth and respecting yourself.
the best thing that happened when i lost you was i found myself. when you left i learned to appreciate myself more, when you broke me i learned to mend my own cuts, and during the times that you lied, i spoiled myself with honesty and genuine feelings. i'm getting better now.
To my future jowa,
Wait ka lang ha, I'll take care of myself muna. If you find me sooner, can you wait for a bit? I promise, if mu-commit ko sa imoha it'll be worth it. I'm healed, but not ready for another one, that's for now. See you, soon!
i came to a point where i'm torn between being desperate to find someone to share love with, but then at the same time i'm losing interest in meeting new people. i'm hoping he could hold on longer, so i'll have plenty of time to spare fixing myself and other things. please?
if i have to sum up what i learned. it's okay to be traditional when it comes to relationships. Ila-ilaha sa ang tawo og deep before committing into a relationship. kay for fck's sake, a committed person is rare to find. If he's not treating u right, just leave
what i experienced was somehow traumatic. i healed myself for years, tapos here comes ibreak ra siya for a month?
sa imoha, wala koy gimahayan, but definitely dili nagyd siya mausban.
not with other people, and definitely not with the same person. no, never again.
at this point, i realized na it's okay na laging "almost" tayo. 'yung nasa stage na muntik ka nang mahalin, muntik jowain. siguro God is indirectly saying na, pang "almost" ka lang kase hinahanda ka niya sa tamang tao. Para when that time comes, totally ready ka na sa kan'ya.
i'll show him how committed i am. i'll be by his side through his ups and downs. i will not make him feel OP when i'm with my friends. i won't mention people or things that will make u feel insecure (i know the feeling, and i won't do that)
i'll try to understand his world.
Just feel the pain until it hurts no more. You can't heal if you keep on pretending that you're not hurt, and how will you move forward if you keep on denying it? After all, the best way to solve a problem is to face it. Soon, you'll be okay.
a friend once told me, "buutan ra kaayo ka, gipasakitan na gane ka unya di pagyd ka mubalos," but i always respond, "the world is already cruel, i have no plans on adding up." basically, i don't want other people to experience the same torture that i went through on their hands.
The society is damn hypocrite–I am part of the society, we are the society. We are hatched to judge, only few knows how to criticize. Lunacy and Hypocrisy–words that define our existence.
i-ayon po natin ang pagchecheat, pananakit at pang-goghost sa face card. hindi pa rin naman valid kahit gwapo ka, pero mas nakakasuka kung panget gumawa. pwe yawa.
unsa kahay feeling nga ampingan ka no? kanang mahadlok siya nga mawala ka maong buhaton niya tanan just to make u stay? ipangutana na lang nas uban kay di ko karelate hahahaha
i'm the kind of lover who is always ready to take risks. i treat the person like he's my last. showing my affection by trying to be the best version myself, as well as share a give-it-all love. because everybody deserves to be treated and loved like brand new.
nakabantay lang ko, happy na in their current relationship akong mga former flings dati. don't get me wrong, i'm genuinely happy with what they have rn and i'm always wishing them happiness. pero karemember lang ko na ako ang tigdawat og trauma sauna, but never pinanindigan.
my former situationships taught me to never settle for less and know your worth. sometimes, we overly seek validity from other people to the point that we forget ourselves and settle with the bare minimum. time will come that being too selfless will drain you. learn to leave.