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intj 20 shedtwt cw52.6kg bmi19.3🤢sw60kg shawol
Joined January 2021
I got so drunk last night…. I’m on my way to my 9am lecture with no sleep and still slightly drunk
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Got spiked last night (3rd time it’s happened) but someone took this pic of me when I got home 😭😭 bro I’m so embarrassed what’s wrong with me
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Bodycheck.I’m super bloated in my stomach so please don’t judge harshly
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I LOOK HUGE.Just got VIP tickets to Aespa so the no money diet is on! Only coco pops, rice, and an ice americano
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Bodycheck.I’ve been having insane headaches for the past few days… fml
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I felt so fat last night and disgusting but I was the bubblehead nurse from silent hill hehehe I made the mask myself
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I want to get drunk so bad tonight but i have no money and 4 cigarettes left
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BODYCHECK.I’m heading back to my apartment today. I’ll start a new diet tomorrow so I can feel better about myself.
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BODYCHECK.Starving myself for Halloween so I won’t feel disgusted with myself (I will)
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Thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthday🩷🩷 I never thought I’d make it to 20
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Only one cig left.Smoking in the cold feels so nice… I wish I had beer
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Bodycheck .This morning bodycheck and a deer I drew a while ago. I really don’t like posting what I draw😖
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just got my new tattoo I’ve never been happier hehehehehe and it’s my best friends birthday
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Bodycheck.The other picture I took from the other day. I feel sick at the thought of looking at myself in the mirror
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I did get super shitfaced last night 🩷 forgot my friends are in a thrash metal band and always have whiskey…. Thank you to everyone who says kinds things to me🩷🩷 I am not used to kindness so it means a lot and thank you so much🩷🩷☺️☺️
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Went to the gym today. My legs have gotten fatter. I’ll order some vitamins too
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BODYCHECK.My makeup yesterday and a bodycheck I did in my uni’s bathroom the other day. I look so so so so huge I’m gonna kms
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Went out last night.Happy I didn’t eat much! I feel good. I don’t feel bloated today and that’s good. Can’t be bloated tomorrow too
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Been playing IDV on my shitty laptop for the past few days. This game also makes me mad but it feels good playing something I enjoy. I’ll try to get back into my interests.
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went out last night ^^.I didn’t want to because I felt like a whale and looked huge but my friend brought her digicam
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it won’t stop raining and I feel so fat. I’ll omad some pasta and shrimp
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My fingers r so fat plz don’t look to hard at them. Also why does my phone airbrush my collarbones…? Why 😢😢 maybe they’re not visible enough?
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Bodycheck.Ahh I’m so sleepy. I want my medication but the delivery service has messed up so it won’t come until Monday
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BODYCHECK.Having 2am noodles… I’m so hungry. Had kimchi and halloumi today at 4:30pm.
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I think I will always think about suicide or ways I wish to die even not by my own hands. I believe my brain is wired this way. I’ve only thought this way since I was super young too. I wish I could feel happy and wish to be happy in the future.
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Bodycheck.I have one from taking out the trash but it’s not very nice to look at 😖
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Bodycheck .I feel so bad recently and haven’t bodychecked in a long time due to not wanting to look at my body
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@georgiastcrry Lololol it’s alright. It’s a north face coat, it’s actually my dads from 10+ years ago.
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At A&E for a burn infection.Thank u to roommate oomf for staying with me 😛
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Went home today instead. Here’s my cute lil dog side eyeing me
I’ll attempt today.
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TW CIG BURN.Right now is the first picture and the second is when I burnt my hand. Me and my friends have matching but it’s so gross… third degree burn since it turned white instantly. I also can’t help but pick at it
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BODYCHECK.From the couch the other day. My birthday is on Saturday. I don’t know if I want to live to 20, seems too long.
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Bodycheck .Why do men not leave me alone when I go drinking with friends??? I don’t know what I do wrong. I know I shouldn’t think that way but it just makes me so sad. Mostly every time we go out I get harassed or assaulted. I’m so tired and ashamed.
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@honeylyo I’m home safe (thank u to my roommate) it’s just embarrassing when u wake up afterwards.
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I wish I had my cigs right now. I wish to experience nothingness again, like before I was born. I believe that’s what death feels like. To take your own life is so easy, I am just cowardly. I do want to, badly. Maybe I’ll just cut again when I return home.
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I hate cola so why did I buy??? Does not taste good either. I was just curious
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Collarbones… I think I hate them 😢 not much I like about myself anymore. I’m going to have to up my intake today since I’m going drinking (when am I not??) but so far I’ve have 52cals from my banana milk I’m drinking now
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@aprilscutie Yeah!!! When Cronus castrated Uranus (his dad), Uranus' balls fell into the ocean and was like "hmmm yes lets turn into sea foam then turn into the goddess of love, sexual love & beauty" lol.
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Thinking about this because he hasn’t messaged me back in 3 days and I haven’t liked a guy (EVER) or someone since 2019 so why do I feel crazy?!?!?! Is this normal?! Does he not like me anymore?!?!?!? Why am I going crazy over a guy this is so embarrassing.
Bodycheck in the guy I'm seeing room - haven't ate for a 24+hrs fast. I'm not sucking in, I hope I look skinny. My new phone arrived today too. He is sleeping beside me. he's so cute (*^^*)
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@itsysl yes😥😥 it would match my other shorts. gotta let the hole out some days. take her for a walk.
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The purchase today 🔥🔥🔥🔥 I will go drinking tonight, tomorrow, Friday and Saturday! The grind doesn’t stop for no one
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Everything I ate today on my way to Canada. I ate everything😢😢 I’m so sleepy
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The ugliest I’ve ever felt. I’m so stressed about this project. It was due today at 2pm. Also got my infection treated. It’s cold in my room too. Ah. I want a cigarette but I lost my pack….
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Sorry for not posting 😢 I binged badly and have been to disgusted to look at myself. I’ve also stopped taking my antipsychotics so I’m trying to manage well. I’ve covered up the mirrors in my room. I seriously hate myself.
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My Spotify wrapped ^^. I love Jonghyun so much - I have a tattoo for him
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I’ve been seeing my family and friends since being back home. Went to a game the other day. I miss hockey. Heading back to the UK in a few hours… I don’t want to go back
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