I'm out of the hospital! Thank you so much everyone for the wishes and getting me through that crazy week. Particular thanks to
@DivaPandas
for keeping everyone updated. I'll talk about my experience a bit more later today, for now catching up with everything.
#OtterAwards22
Game of the Year: Brok the Investigator (
@COWCATGames
)
I knew this was going to be good, but what a ride. The characters, the lore, the puzzles, the combat.I was floored with the emotions this game put me through and my investment in the characters. (1/6)
Hit 2000 followers on Twitch tonight :D Thank you to everyone who clicked that button and gave me a chance, it's definitely a number I never thought I'd see just starting out!
#OtterAwards22
#17
: The Spirit and the Mouse (
@SpiritAndMouse
)
Gosh, this game. It's beautiful for one thing, you get to be a thing that squeaks (I'll take what I can get, okay?), and the story seems like it was torn straight out of a Disney movie. It's sort of a platformer(1/3)
The furry community on Twitch has always had a problem with cliques and popularity contests, and Furries on Twitch was helping perpetuate that. I hope things get better from here and we begin to realize that all creators matter and are special in their own ways.
Well, I've been doing a lot of soul searching recently, and it's time to reveal my true self. I've been thinking about this a lot, and my identify belongs with a different marine mammal.
Arp arp! I'm a seal now :3
🎨:
@FenryPanda
It's easy to forget while streaming, but as a viewer talking to streamers is surprisingly hard! Having a welcoming community with ongoing conversation helps. This is why I always say that interactive community members are the real heroes of a stream. Make sure to cherish them!
Got a haircut today and the stylist curled up the top part of my hair which looks heckin' awesome. No idea how to do this myself so I figured I'd document this while it's still there.
Hi! I'm Brownie, your friendly neighborhood wolf-otter.
I run a positive and supporting campground on Twitch:
I also do art and needle crafts! Here's my commission info and examples:
Oh and I say arf sometimes, on request.
Got my first art of me as a feral otter. This one is special as it's more "me" than the wotter, and it's kind of what I want to be known as now. Of course I still have so much wotter stuff, that the wotter Brownie will never really go away.
🎨:
@Hozzerino
It's that day, I'm 28 now! There was a lot of progress while I was 27 and I'm really proud of that, here's to more good things to come!
Thank you for the gift art @/NyxWuff and @/WereBearista - really made me feel special.
Birthday stream details below!
Today officially marks 4 years since I started streaming! Still the best decision I made in my life. Funny how it started out with wanting to make something more productive of my Splatoon sessions.
One year ago on this day I decided to stream on Twitch. At the time I just thought it would be nice to have some company during my Splatoon grinding, and then as time went on it turned out to be so much more. Here's to many more fun times streaming in the coming year!
I've loved TF art for a long time, long before I officially even became a furry... and today I finished my first piece of TF artwork. Just started with the face, but I hope to work on full body TF soon!
#transfur
#TFEveryDay
I've gotten into sewing recently and made a plushie for my sona! Pleased with how this came out, though I'll probably try to make the design even better in the future.
Who's sona should I make into a plushie next? :3
I may have gotten myself a job doing computer science teaching :)
Starting slow with hours, but it could be the first step in a solution to finally getting myself occupied and financially stable.
#OtterAwards22
#9
: Mago (
@DreamPotionGame
)
2D platformers that harken back to the 90's don't come around often, and I smile so much whenever they do. This one shines in its willingness to keep adding new game mechanics, always keeping things fresh and interesting. (1/3)
Just played through the
@ButtonCity
demo and had a blast. This game's got a charming art style, so many unique and fun characters, and from the looks of it some really neat minigames. Can't wait for the full release! Definitely check out the demo while it's still available.
I maybe got a job? I just gave a demo class to kids and the observer said I did really well (with a few things to improve on).
Time to be cautiously optimistic let's gooooo
I won't be streaming on a schedule for the foreseeable future, or be active much on social media and DMs. I'm feeling done with Twitch and I don't know if it's time to move on or if depression has taken another thing from me. Not that anyone will care at all...
I got to swim again today :) felt so good being in my comfort zone again, even though I'm super out of shape. I plan on going to the lake a ton, it's super nice water and plenty of room, so I suppose I'll keep training to be a better ott! And buy some water toys to fetch.
We did it everyone! Hit 1000 followers on my birthday! Never did I think I'd get to this point with my stream. Thank you everyone who's ever raided, hosted, hung out, lurked, followed, all of you helped make this happen and turned Camp Brownie into what it is now.
If you see this wotter at BLFC, please give him hugs and affection and tell him he's a good boy. He will provide lots of affection back and can join you in games, conversation, foods or other adventures.
Please, if a streamer asks you don't talk about a topic, respect their wishes and don't talk about it. Don't try to explain why refusing to take a stance is taking a stance. Streaming is already mentally taxing and having to argue on top of it is a big nope.
April Fools! I love seals but I'm still an otter soul and furry wotter all the way. I do like the look of seal Brownie, so maybe I'll still TF into him sometimes...
This art is by the lovely
@panapoliz
, who drew this absolutely AMAZING piece to me for free. Check them out!
Hit 3000 followers on Twitch tonight. Once again an amazing milestone, it was a long and grueling journey to get here, but thanks everyone for all the support in any way possible, even just continuing to show up and make the community great!
Last day of vacation for me. It's been good to take a break from everything but I've also been lonely and missed you all! I'll be back to streaming on Sunday.
Somehow this was the most appealing thing I saw in all the game showcases I looked at today? Idk what that says about me as a gamer but I just wanna platform as weird toys.
The funny thing about mental illness is you'll get rejected by tons of people for being you, and then you'll find that one person who dealt with it too and there's this overwhelming amount of support you have for each other ❤️
When you discover you're in the credits of a game and didn't know it.
Thank you
@SunblazeGame
for making such a wonderful game and putting me in there, very honored to play it!
Two new things I'm doing in May:
#1
I'm going to pick a small streamer that deserves more attention every day of this month and shout them out! Twitch discovery sucks so I want to do my part to make sure more streamers and community members get acquainted.
If you want me to come to your streams or support your content creation endeavors, bonding with me over common interests or shared emotional support is generally the best way to do so.
One of the key points of getting people to stick around on Twitch:
Don't make your stream only about the game you're playing. That only works if you're a pro player of said game.
Instead focus on building relationships with those that come by, and the interests that define you.
Happy vent for a second: I've done two streams this week where I really just hammered into deep personal stuff that I'm going through instead of just chatting about whatever everyone else wants to, and instead of driving people away everyone's been really supportive <3
This is so true though. I've found that otherkin have a deeper sense of self understanding than most others I've known. And if someone accepts me as otter, there's a pretty good chance they accept me in general.
imo, at it's core being otherkin is knowing yourself fully and what experiences have culminated to lead you to what you are today, and also functions as a different sort of lens to see and experience the world through, and divulging it to others is revealing your deepest self
Instead of telling someone you're there for them...
Just be there for them. Ask them about what they deal with, understand their feelings. Offer to hang out if desired. Actions speak louder than words, and those of us with trust issues will appreciate that more than a promise.
Had someone in chat today who was spamming chat commands, advertising another streamer, talking in different languages, generally making no sense and it stressed me the heck out, even after I finally banned them. Let this be a lesson: don't deal with this for as long as I did...
After about a month off, I think I'm going to return to streaming. Part of me missed experiencing weird games with you all, and it should be a nice break from my other endeavors.
Camp will be back in a little over a week :)
I know people will say connections made on stream don't matter and they're purely parasocial. But they matter to me. I say real things to the people in chat while live and I want real friendships. Is that asking too much?
Can I just comment on how great is to have a whole community of people (and not-people) that accept me as being an otter and not a human?
Because it's pretty darn great.
"Okay everyone, I'll end stream after this puzzle"
*chatter that I haven't seen in a long time comes in*
"Okay everyone, one more puzzle"
*raid happens*
"Okay everyone, one more..."
Been thinking a lot about relationships lately and I've been realizing that appearance and location are mattering less and less, when it comes to finding someone that gets me intellectually.
So basically what I'm saying is, if I find a boyfriend it'll probably be from Twitch.
Would there be any interest in mental health focused chatting streams? It would basically an open conversation where we share our mental health experiences and connect, as well as learning what's out there to combat nasty brain stuff.
I wish more people could just... express themselves. Share their fears and their struggles without worries of being rejected. The world would be a much nicer place if we were actually given the tools to help each other.
Sometimes the solution to mental illness is just time. Just a year ago, I didn't have the right meds or the right individuals in my life. Now I'm starting to find them and things feel like they're really healing.
If you fuck with someone, you're an asshole. If you fuck with someone who has trust issues and a history of things going wrong, you're a whole new level of scum.
Family got a membership to the local gym, and because of it I started swimming in the mornings today! I suck at it, but it's nice to feel a bit more ottery.
Was casually viewing the credits of a game I just beat (Freshly Frosted) when... what is this? I'm in the credits? Thank you so much
@QuantumApG
! Even though I'm not really sure why.
Hernia surgery happens tomorrow... I'm kinda scared but I think it's going to be okay!
I'll update you all on here when it's done. I'd appreciate any messages and company over the next few days while I recover.
Reached a goal yesterday of 100 subs, I'm so thankful for the community I have, with not only their financial support but also keeping a supportive and kind atmosphere. As a result I'll be making a Brownie plush, hopefully to sell, and my sewing machine should be arriving soon!
I need to stop obsessing over the destination. Not everything I do has to be my future career and my big contribution to the world. Slowly learning how to just enjoy myself. Would be nice if I could figure out a career, but for now it's all I can do.
I'm going to try something new. Starting today, every day I'm going to pick 3 friends I haven't talked to in a while and catch up with them.
Even if we're social distancing physically we don't have to over the internet. Let's help everyone feel less isolated!
Living with furry roommates is helping my mood a lot so far. Every time I get super bored and depressed, they pull me out of my own head. Hopefully things will stay that way!
Now to just figure out how to motivate myself to do things besides streaming...
Going to try to be our best support animal self today as we take care of a magical girlfriend. Join us for this
#IGCShowcase
of A Space for the Unbound (
@ASFTUgame
), a slice of life story with mental health themes!
🔗👇
@IGCollective