i have this scene in my head where garam and jaehyuk are on a date and garam sees his high school ex, only to completely freeze up at the sight of him. jaehyuk looks over to see where garam is looking/why he had stopped and he sees a reasonably attractive man, similar
skylar is trembling, he feels so apologetic that he is trembling, while there are tears in his eyes. like skylar realizes that he went too far, and while he may not have all the right words to say beyond being able to say sorry, he hopes that cirrus will still understand him and
cirrus slowly breaking down, but doing his best to keep it together, as he walked up to the board, only to crumble as soon as he was right next to skylar because he had seemingly appeared to be ‘completely fine’ and after seeing that, he just couldn’t keep it together anymore 😢
cirrus watching skylar’s reactions to see if he was alright from him accidentally losing control and waiting for skylar to answer him so that they can continue, only to follow up in a slower, more meaningful pace for the two, was pretty romantic and caring on cirrus’ part.
my heart was in my throat when skylar told cirrus he was using him as a substitute for chan-il, especially since cirrus is obviously in love with skylar and this being like a week or two after cirrus had confided in skylar about his most painful secrets and saw him as a safe
a🧵:
for the english translation of litc season 3, we’ve all seen skylar call cirrus dude a couple of times now and i don’t think it’s necessarily due to the translators wanting to use american english slang for the funsies, but it’s a simple way to show a change in how skylar
people always bring up cirrus’ past behavior to try and prove a point about how he is worse than skylar or that he never changed and that’s why having any empathy/sympathy for him is bad, but ya’ll forget this scene exists where cirrus apologizes and owns up to a lot of his past
cirrus getting upset and telling this to chan-il was so freaking real because when your house is unsafe and you’re basically your family’s punching bag, sometimes you have to tell yourself that the abusive treatment isn’t that big of a deal to survive that pain.
and as much as
skylar being completely conked out like this in cirrus’ bed shows that he is comfortable with cirrus. if he wasn’t, we’d probably see some different body language from him, so seeing how relaxed he is, despite having a long day, bodes well for how he sees cirrus and his space.
skylar thinking that cirrus has only seen him at his worst, but skylar has literally seen cirrus in the pits of hell multiple times now. and with this moment right here, it’s likely that skylar will be unable to ignore what’s going on anymore… not when cirrus looks like this!
from a story perspective, these two scenes seem like a bad omen in the sense that things will go very bad for cirrus and skylar—like we already know they’re going to deal with even more terrible things, but from a lighting perspective, that doesn’t hold true at all. it seems like
ch20 has skylar scared & looking unwell towards cirrus due to ch19 but ch82 has skylar blushing & the emotion symbols up to this point suggest that his heart has started to roar, but instead of looking scared, he looks more confused/shocked & as if he doesn’t know what to do
chan-il definitely thinks that skylar is stealing his bff spot or that skylar and cirrus are hiding something from him… which is true, but probably not in the way that he’s thinking…
cirrus is so overly romantic at like the absolute worst times… like the stuff that comes out of his mouth is crazy, but it’s also kind of sweet if you think about what he is trying to say, but his timing is not always great and some of it’s built on insecurities… but the last
definitely think paskim was deliberate in using these two panels to make the kiss more ominous—as if there’s more going on than just cirrus’ feelings for skylar, especially since we’ve seen a few cracks in his armor already for other stressors in his life.
gawd, cirrus’ look here is top tier… like he looks so sporty, but he also got this little preppy sass going on, and i’m here for him being the hottest thing on those tennis courts.
what if skylar tells his mom that he was actually at his boyfriend’s place next week because she doesn’t buy the ‘i fell asleep at the library’ excuse… like i bet she saw skylar trying to hide his hickies in s2 with clothes and she knows that cirrus slept over before and it’s
people forget that paskim has to pay her bills, she’s not going to completely nuke the main couple of her biggest selling series at the end of season 3
i hope we can hold skylar’s actions accountable today and not reason them away because cirrus had goaded him into it or something similar like that… like the violence that skylar showed this chapter was immense and the only reason that he had stopped was due to cirrus eventually
i don’t think people know how much i would have wanted a scene of minwoo seeing cirrus and skylar on a date, skylar laughing and looking happy at whatever cirrus has said while cirrus does something like brush his boyfriend’s hair out of his eyes and there’s a glint of their
i don't think people love me. they love versions of me i have spun for them, versions of me they have construed in their minds. the easy versions of me, the easy parts of me to love.
this was my favorite cirrus panel this chapter because he was so dang proud of himself for his thought process about skylar being sweet like caramel corn and when he heard skylar liked it after he had mentioned that they should get some, it became a complete success in his book!
cirrus was literally ready to take an electric screw driver to the face due to his shock and pain of finding out jisu and his dad were throwing all of his mom’s belongings away… 😭
i like how cirrus’ eyes in this panel confirm my thoughts about his eye color in the movie theater date chapter about how there are insecurities he needs to work through when it comes to skylar and his relationship
paskim, give us the full picture of this please… i know candy wasn’t cut out. skylar definitely got the both of them and this picture is probably going to be his phone background for a while… give us the director’s cut!
cirrus is so smooth… & skylar getting all embarrassed & blush-y about the movie scenes, setting up that tension… maybe this kiss will go much better, especially since, deep down, skylar may not be as opposed to the idea—the heart wants what the heart wants, so…🙃
cirrus getting verbal confirmation, as well as physical confirmation by taking in skylar’s body language is absolutely amazing growth from him in terms of him respecting skylar’s boundaries. him following up with a slower kiss shows he is trying to keep to skylar’s pace too.
cirrus watching skylar’s reactions to see if he was alright from him accidentally losing control and waiting for skylar to answer him so that they can continue, only to follow up in a slower, more meaningful pace for the two, was pretty romantic and caring on cirrus’ part.
skylar’s actions to cirrus this chapter seem to parallel the fight scene with his mom and that it’s likely that skylar could make the same decision to run away after realizing the state that he had just put cirrus in (cirrus being emotionally and physically injured by
cirrus was so boyfriend this chapter, but this scene especially took me out… cirrus’ beautiful face and the nuzzling, skylar is so lucky to see this in the morning! 🥰
i guess jeonghoon was the one that noticed cirrus and skylar fighting and put 2+2 together as he’s seen them acting weird before in s1, and like the ‘friend’ he is to dongsik, he told him about what he had seen because he’s a spineless idiot when it comes to him.
i love that cirrus’ genuine happy smile is a bit funky looking, but it’s also depressing because it probably means that he’s never had to use those muscles in his face like that for a very long time…
cirrus is so soft here…
like so soft…
this was definitely my favorite expression of his and the fact that he can look like this despite everything, please save my boy!
the kiss… the hand placement… jaehyuk having such big hands… jaehyuk dwarfing garam a bit… jaehyuk blushing up to his ears… garam returning the kiss… like this is what i was waiting for!
the one thing that i noticed during cirrus’ and skylar’s fight, which was quite different from their last one, as well as their backstory chapters, is the fact that there is light, not darkness or grayness, but light, and that light gives me hope that they will figure things out.
cirrus isn’t stuck in the dark anymore and while it sucks to learn what he has learned over the last few chapters, he is now in a state where he can heal, see things more clearly, and work on himself… how i know? +
paskim’s pulling a bait and switch… like next chapter skylar will have flashbacks to cirrus apologizing and being honest with him and cirrus breaking down in front of him and telling him that he’ll wait for him and he’ll realize that cirrus couldn’t have planned any of that
here’s a pinned thread with links to my ongoing efforts of writing a skyrus future fic/au where cirrus essentially leaves town after the events in ch82 only for him and skylar to meet again in their 20s… see drabbles and notes below!👇
so relooking at the almost cirrus-skylar kiss scene in ch82, it looks like the ringing of skylar’s cell is the thing that pulls skylar away from cirrus and forces him to re-think about what’s going on…
but the moment before that ring…
very interesting… 🤔
skylar may not have meant what he said, but he still said it on purpose… like his intent was to cause pain and he succeeded at doing that, so he now needs to own up to it and apologize.
this is the best panel of the chapter, & i think it shows the depths of skylar’s pain; the shadows of his healing; a warring heart & mind to understand himself & potentially cirrus’ actions; & the changes, both negative & positive, that he’s dealt with over the past few months
this scene in ep65 still feels so much darker than just cirrus getting jealous/upset at jigyeom touching skylar, and to me, it just reeks of trauma responses and reminds me of the darkness that we see in his backstory chapters. cirrus focusing on jigyeom being behind skylar,+
i’m okay with cirrus deleting that text because it’s in character for him and after the night he had, he’s immensely fragile despite the weight that’s been taken off his shoulders, but i know people will post about how awful cirrus is for doing that, even though it’s only been a
i seriously think that some don’t fully grasp the importance of cirrus’ and skylar’s physical and sexual intimacy and how it’s a key component in their healing, and by fearing implicit scenes of the two furthering their relationship with physical and sexual touch is keeping one
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a 🧵 about cirrus’ apology at the end of s2:
cirrus’ apology starts off with him thinking back to the first moment cirrus had reached out to skylar after getting beat up by his father. the ‘i always felt okay around you, but you didn’t’ gets after a long period of time—most
i need skylar to let cirrus hang out with him at school again without the two sneaking around and skylar having a game plan that doesn’t have him hiding cirrus in a restroom if someone they know ends up seeing them hang out together and he could invite cirrus to study with him
cirrus looking so ethereal, despite the lack of sleep… like what a pretty boy… like seriously, just look at how gorgeous his eyes are!
#lostinthecloud
#litc
i think skylar was more reflecting on the idea that a couple of months ago, he would have been on the moon about chan-il wanting to hang out with him like that and the two being alone together, but now that he has cirrus, things are much different and his feelings aren’t
i love how cirrus mischievously didn’t tell skylar that he’d be helping him move, he just assumed that skylar would help 😂 and skylar, you’re whipped so bad if you’re doing that with minimal complaints
let cirrus push skylar out of the way if hyungsik strikes back and have him take that punch instead. then after the fight, skylar can dress cirrus’ wounds and cirrus can give him a nice, romantic line about how he had wanted to protect him (his face) because skylar got pretty for
skylar literally gave cirrus a bouquet you’d see at weddings… the peonies, the gardenias, the lilies, the baby’s breath, the eucalyptus leaves… that’s a freaking bouquet of wedding flowers if i’ve ever seen one… skylar is literally telling cirrus he loves him in flower form.
cirrus… only eating your one meal and a handful of drinks at school, as well as the occasional meal with skylar and the guys, is not the healthiest… and skylar, cirrus isn’t just not cooking because he doesn’t know how to, but it’s likely that he’s never that hungry
i think these two panels are going to come into play for chan-il… he’s going to feel betrayed that cirrus has kept so much of his past from him, especially since cirrus had made him believe that he had a good family since middle school, and due to him eavesdropping on+
the scratches are more prominent on cirrus’ face and there’s a finger-shaped bruise there too (jisu lashed out—the marks might be from her nails scratching cirrus); there is more bruising around the knuckles (cirrus fighting back, which is a change!) +
#lostinthecloud
garam baby was sick the whole chapter—he was absolutely feverish, so now he needs his jaehyuk to take care of him so that he can recover enough for his final exam! 😊
skylar saying fireworks so quietly that cirrus heard him say ‘i’ll do it with you’ & not ‘i’ll do fireworks with you…’
you cannot blame cirrus for short circuiting & getting his hopes up when skylar was so embarrassed about his idea that he came across as suggestive instead 🤣
like look at the difference between cirrus at the end of s2 and the sneak peak, because end of s2 had his hair all glossy/shiny (it even looks golden) and he also had a bit of color, while the sneak peak had his hair looking gray/lifeless and him just looking numb/detached 😢
on my last litc reread, skylar was literally blushing at the idea of going to the amusement park with cirrus… i don’t know why he’d do such a thing, but it’s uh… probably not a normal response to a guy that was once an enemy but is now a ‘friend’ 🤷♂️
between the words about skylar saying that he was using cirrus as a substitute for chan-il and the beating… like skylar, you got an uphill battle to make up for that…
cirrus isn’t perfect, but he’s trying really hard to keep to skylar’s pace, and him asking skylar to give him confidence in their relationship—whether that’s skylar giving him more context to why he’s been paranoid of others seeing them together or letting himself enjoy their
skylar disliking sour or bitter foods, but still drinking the lemonade that cirrus bought him… i think about that a lot, because cirrus’ preferred lemonade brand probably isn’t super sweet, but a mix of sour and sweet, and skylar still accepted and drank that stuff anyway 😊